This has been a long and difficult journey.
I feel I’ve ultimately found what I was searching for.
I found today.
I’ve found out that the greatest obstacle to my happiness, or contentness, has been the toxic relationship I’ve had with myself. The negative inner voice I’ve fed all of these years. And the way I’ve always lived in the past or worried about the future. I’ve learned to stop and look at the beauty around me that is always present.
I’d like to thank everyone for the huge spectrum of responses I’ve received to the question, “what is the key to happiness?”
Every single person I’ve discussed life with during this trip has offered me something both amazing and unique. No two answers were the same. And the wisdom I’ve slowly been collecting has also granted me something else, something that is also quite new to me:
I’ve found confidence.
I’ve found confidence in myself. I can hold my head up high when I look in the mirror. I am happy with the person I am today. I am excited about my future. I look forward to Phoenix. I am proud of myself for what I’ve accomplished here on this journey. I endured, time and time again, in the face of adversity. I soldiered on when the easier thing would have been to quit. I never chose the easy path. I never chose to settle for less than the full experience, for less than I deserved, and for less than I set out to do.
I didn’t cut my trip short and sell the bike when I got to Vancouver. I didn’t either when it seemed it was ready to quit in Montreal. I didn’t beeline it to the US border from Montreal to play it safe. I kept on towards Halifax. I did coast to coast Canada.
Fuck, it’s hard to believe it.
I did coast to coast Canada.
I’ve found the confidence that somehow, in this life, I am always going to find a way to soldier on.
I’ve found the confidence that I am going to be happy.
I’ve found the confidence to say…
I deserve to be happy.
But most importantly, I’ve found the confidence to say…
I am happy.
Until next time,